Today I am feeling confused when it comes to my life. I have found out that love is hard to find when you are looking in all the wrong places. How is it that someone can hurt for sooo long over something that they almost had. I lost my child over a year ago and I think I am still hurting. I have been trying every since to conceive again but has had no luck. I was starting feel as if God punished me for my past but that is not the case. I am trying to figure out am I wrong because I envy those around me that do get pregnant I mean how can I be mad about someone elses blessing? I feel as though I'm waiting on God and I know he hears my cry. Or I wonder maybe is it God thats waiting on me. This has hit me today because someone I am soooo very close to called to tell me she was pregnant today and I am sooooooo happy for her but at the same time I am wishing it was I who could be giving such news. Why is it that the females who dont want kids or have kids and are not taking care of them gets pregnant so very easy, but those of us who wants them and can take care of them can't. I guess I have to just keep trying or maybe I should give up!!!!!!
Don't give up...God knows and He hears.Keep pressing, you will smile in the end.
ReplyDeleteThis is not to flatter or console you but it is the TRUTH.